Messages

I wonder sometimes what it would be like to receive a message from the universe. It must be pretty intense. 

I met someone petitioning at Safeway, and they told me about a spiritual epiphany. It wasn't rational, but after that moment the rabbits could sense that they were no longer a predator. 

If I believed in God I would look for Him everywhere. Every coincidence would be an opportunity to learn. I was journaling at a new cafe, reflecting on how I should turn outward and make my life about other people, and when I looked up I saw a giant mural of a person embraced by a sea of arms and hands. Across the top it read: "TOGETHER". 

Without giving in to blatant superstition, any such divinity must then live within ourselves. I could spend an eternity pondering my dreams in narcissistic meditation. 

So instead I look to others, but I am almost as harsh a critic of them as I am of cute coincidences. When I was 12 they told me (despite my objections) that the sky is blue because it's a reflection of the ocean. I haven't forgiven that yet. 

I am listening, but I lack faith.