11 November 2025

I grew up with dreams of world domination, glorious revolutions, and carefully crafted conspiracies. I don't think I realized how hard it would be to just maintain homeostasis. 

Two days ago I made cookies from a friend's recipe that I KNOW is super good. Licking the batter out of bowl was delicious, but the cookies ended up both underbaked and burnt. This morning I made sourdough bread, which was going really well, except I took it out of the oven much too early because the baking paper was burning. When I took out the glass tray I was using to make steam and put it in the sink to cool off, it instantly shattered into like 300 pieces (yes, I screamed). I'm now scraping the charred baking paper off my underbaked sourdough and wondering why I don't leave this sort of thing up to the professionals. 

It's scary to think of how many other 28 year olds are already parents. I imagine a lot of people rise to the responsibilities and expectations that are placed on them, and a quiet competence emerges from that. 

It is the little things that build the foundation of what comes next. I don't believe in grand gestures or epiphanies. Inflection points exist of course. At a certain temperature the baking paper does catch fire. But it takes time for it all to accrue. 

This weekend I'm making a new batch of cookies, and so help me god, they will turn out slightly better.